'You' Do Not Care About 'Boyfriend'
"Every man is a boy but not every boy is a man"
Everybody born with love must want to be loved again especially by someone special, right?
Well, its different from me which i am - who do not care about love's men - type of person. Doesn't mean i won't married to any men or don't want (yes, of course i wanna get married its beautiful things in the life right?) but the matter is i ain't easy to accept anybody into my life because of what happened to me before.
[ First, don't think about any big tragedy, ITS NOT ]
So when i was a teenage girl, i was bullied by seniors student by GOSSIP-ing me with some boy. It was started when that boy's sister was spreading a rumor into the whole hostel (yes, almost whole student know it) about her brother likes me. Even I WAS NEVER responded to their nonsense they still act like i was her sister in-law / his wife already, WTH? I cried so bad in the bathroom when someone told me that that boy want me no matter what. I mean, we are just 14 years old kids at that time, why we have to think about adult matters already?
Even my dad and my mom knows these case. I hate it even more. 😞
Almost 4 years, i defends my self for not to get involved in this nonsense, ignore people gossiping about me, ignore their useless dreams. Unexpected, two years ago his sister text my sister asking about me, i was like ; "WHAT!? YOU KNEW I NEVER ACCEPT YOU, WHY AGAIN?" Ugh, I should label them as a person who like to force, absolutely you know a love can't be forced right? Such a worst nightmare to me.
I thinks that the end but no; i was bullied once again and yes it was from GOSSIP also. The story was same as above -started from sister who spreading bla bla bla- untill everyone take them as a serious matter. What a disappoinment ; i got to know from my friend, the boy tolds their geng : ME LIKE HIM FIRST. 😬WHAT? SINCE WHEN? DO I KNEW HIM BEFORE? NO! Such a worst accusation ever (fitnah) toward me!
And many things that boys did to me which make me hate them more. Make people keep bad mouthing about me. Indeed, its all because of YOU! Such a improper attitude (of being a man) towards women. Even with just two cases but that is enough for me to go through it.
**Maybe it is just a simple matter for others, it is just a story of naughty boy during school, it is just ordinary story of monkey-love student, like ; everyone has experienced this la, no hal la. No ladies and gentleman, these matter was affected me, affected my passion, my sense, my life. I didn't have any boy friends around me, i am scared of them. Such a pressure to me. I become a hater to any gossiper and i will not going into gossip group while my friend in, better shut up my lips. Also I hate being in society. Yet, people won't consider the GOSSIP as a forms of BULLY too. NEVER!
For future i just hoping & keep praying on someone or a man -who truly loves and treasure me- would willing to open my heart and accept him as my long life partner. Of course he is the one who will makes me fall in love with him at first sight, in sha Allah.
⃠ ❤ SO THAT IS WHY I DO NOT CARE ABOUT BOYFRIEND,-끝-
However, gossip gone bad can be devastating to its targets. This form of social aggression, according to psychologist Marion Underwood, PhD, hurts the giver and the taker. Underwood has found that for children, being victimized by social aggression (including gossip) is associated with poor self-concept, especially for girls. Other studies show that victimization is associated with loneliness, depression and anxiety. -APA
--It took me more than 3 days to post this story -whether i should or not?